Sometimes...

This is One of Those Times.  I seem to have them often which leads me to think...THIS IS A  HABIT!

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm............................

I will leave "that" thought drifting along side the stream I drift along with.

I am pondering quite a bit...quite a bit.

deep breath.

surrender.

thrive.

push through?

or just be in "It".  Not loving or liking but Being.

Aaaah, You already know this!  If fact, lots of you have told me this.  I have heard "It" in Your Voices.  Some face to face, screen to screen, ear to ear, word to word, link to link...I have heard You.

The voice that I hear the strongest is my own.  As with most folks.  It is the voice of my Spirit rising up like a strong and mighty tree.  It is a voice that makes me sit taller when it speaks.  It is not  screaming loud...no.  It is a soft undertone of wisdom.  It is a voice that reminds me of who I am.  How could  possibly doubt my true self?  It's all of my spirit.  ALL OF ME.

So when this powerful Beloved arises and speaks words that bring me back to center...and if I can possibly hear Myself, if it is my Heart speaking, then I can slide deeply into My Center.

currently sliding.

............................... days later............

Wednesday...

. feeling "pressure" to do DO DO!!!

What UP!!

Oh Henri (Bendel's), you fickle man...is it worth all this DO DO DO!!!  Are you sure???  I am not so sure.  Not at all.  I can fake myself into thinking I am sure...but I am not.  NOT AT ALL!

And then I am stressed!  I mean, phone turned off, bank over drawn (Whaaaaa!?!?), bills in earlier than expected, me still late even if they came when I thought they would...me working FULL TIME!  Me showing up!  Me striving, striving, striving, and ...here's the Good News!

GOOD NEWS!!!!

I am fully desiring to WORK FOR MYSELF!!!  And I am fearful about "the bills"...yet HERE I AM!  Unable to do what I really want to do, which is WORK ON MY COLLECTION, PUT TOGETHER MY PACKAGE, GROW MY BUSINESS...etc.

Instead, I am working this month, 5 days a week (to help out and, I thought, save some money)...but I am not saving any money...I am sinking deeper then when I worked three days!

.... SO... Lesson Learned...it's going to be fine when I am on my own.  I'm not financially any better off working for someone either. 

AND even more important...I NEED TO PASS THIS TEST!!!  SO I can go on to the Next Level!!!

I AM READY!

I AM WILLING!

I AM ABLE!!!!

YES I AM!!!

p.s.

Happy New Season!!!  Happy Spring Time!!!

Choice Snippets From My Week

Aaaaah....technology!  Spoiler alert there is delay between my voice and the video...after endless attempts I say "Suck it!"  It tis what it tis!

I didn't want to re-do the shoot because I say everything I want to so naturally it is worth, even, simply, a listen. 

So if you feel dizzy...sit back, close your eyes, and go from there!

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Let Me Eat Cake!

Chocolate Cake for Breakfast?  

It's that sort of day.  A day that rarely happens (in fact I can not remember the last time, if ever, I have indulged so), making this Extra Special.

What brought about such a ridiculous way to start my day?  Well a walk by a bakery yesterday helped.  I walked in and thought I really want cake.  I want to celebrate the abundance of knowledge pouring into my brain, the love pouring out of my heart, and the sweetness of my soul.

I chose chocolate with rainbow sprinkles.  

And then I forgot about it till around 12:30am when all of the sudden I was like "CAKE!"... but I used my wisdom and promised myself a deluxe breakfast! 

I make wise choices.

As well, this is the end of one way of life as I prepare the commencement of a New Way of Life!

I am diving soul first into a WELLNESS WAY.

It is time to strengthen and clear out, fuel my body to keep up with the amazing journey I am on called My Life and after this over indulgent breakfast, it is time for All Things Great For Me.


Not just comforting, nor just satisfying, but really GREAT for me. Full of vitamins, food that makes my system smile.

It's not just about food and exercise...My Wellness encompasses ALL aspects of divine health.  How I think, my spiritual journey, how I represent myself, what brings me joy.

It's a new month and coming upon Spring it is indeed a time for new bud-lings of the glorious flowers that are Me!


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So for this moment Let Me Eat Cake!  


Have a beautiful weekend!

Shifting

I'm here! I'm here!  

I know it's been a long while...last "official" posting
    Nov. 27, 2011...now Jan. 19, 2012.  

Last time I posted I was "just" about to move to the tippety top of Manhattan...AND I HAVE!!!

Then immediately the holidays came upon me.  Christmas in NY with all the lights, displays and wonderment...along with all the retail/production hours I put in.  And then just as my 4 week work jamble was starting to wind down I got a call into The Big Leagues!!!

All of the sudden I was making 4 hats for the National Tour Of Mary Poppins...the Broadway production!!! 

And then came this week.

Finally back to a pace that is smooth.  

I have indeed written some half done posts throughout this time but actually finishing them properly time has not permitted. I am barely doing this tonight even...but checking in is a great thing and I WILL be back on track pretty soon.  Well I am definitely ON TRACK...I mean Mary Poppins!!!  Please!!!  If I ever questioned why I wanted to live here for my career it is a certain now...spot on!

So after moving my self and belongs to the top of NYC, retail/production holiday marathon, Mary Poppins whizzing in and twirling me as fast as possible...what's a gal to do?

I say run to the sea!!!  The beautiful sea...the sand and salt air, the night sky, the endless ocean!

I'm running to Montauk, NY...from the very tip of Manhattan to the very tip of Long Island.  And I am doing this in complete style!  A lovely B&B 2 room suite, with fireplace in room, ocean view and directly across the road (it's country after all) to the sea AND for 4 long lux nights during...the next FULL MOON!!!

Aaaaaaaaaah Retreat!!! YES!!! RETREAT!!!

There is some shifting I feel happening.  Slowing down quietly for a few days allows me to understand and adjust to the shifts from the Universe.  These are very good movements and as I see God launch me swiftly into even my wildest dreams I want to be prepared...so I plan to stare into one of God's wildest dreams...

I'll be back with photos from the holidays to Poppins to new casa to the sea!!!

Happy Brand New Year!!!

Moving on UP, UP, UP

From Manhattan Beach, Ca to Manhattan, NY...from the Island of Maui, Hawaii to the Island of Manhattan, NY...I HAVE FOUND MY HOME!!!!

Clear at the tippity-est tippy top of Manhattan resides the area of Inwood and soon Katherine Carey.

 

So here's the story, as the story goes...so far:

I, as most know, was searching and saving and what not.  Dealing with a lot of scams that I avoided, (sometimes barely), and keeping my faith though feeling a bit beaten up lately.

(Fa-Shizzled!)

This morning, yet again, I answered some Craig's List ads.   The month is coming to an end and my intention was to be moved by beginning of December...if I could.

And then I got a call.  I feel I have been on edge when the phone rings (because of the scams...boo! scams!) yet on the other line was a voice that sounded like me... a normal person actually looking for a normal housemate.  We both have housemate hunting issues and guards up.  But she was home today... so off went the lounge wear and on went the clothes and OFF I WENT on yet...another adventure into the Unknown.

I took my two trains to get me off of NJ and onto Manhattan ...found the A train and up, up, up, UP I went ALL the way to the top of my beloved island.  

Through the Village, and Midtown, past Central Park, past Harlem and into Washington Heights/Inwood.

I came up from the subway station and was prepared for what this "hood" would look/more importantly FEEL like.

It felt...fine.

aaaaaaah.

There were businesses, people, lights, life.  It felt safe not seedy.

fine.

I called the woman and she walked up to meet me and we strolled less than 3 blocks to the apt.

She seemed normal (+++) and fine!

The building looked well kept up, older (as most are), CLEAN, and has lovely little tile work to walk upon.

One flight of steps up and in I go.

The entry way is narrow and has a small leather love seat (turns out it's the common area/living room LOL)

Classic NYC.

Then there is my room...I see black and white tiles on the floor and the room is an odd shape I can only describe as an octagon-ish design.

It's painted pale yellow like my JC room and a couple walls are a nice beige.  I see a window (++) and a heater (++) and it is furnished with a bed (++) and a nice love seat (rather over stuffed and lovely)...that can stay in the room.

We chat.

We both feel good.

So tomorrow I will bring a deposit over.

I will move after the first week of December as I will have all the funds necessary then.

In about two weeks I will be all settled in and will spend Christmas in My New Home with My New Housemates toasting My New Life living on the UPPER UPPER side of My Beloved Manhattan.

My wish list for absolutes (musts) was:

1. normal people (scams can do this )

2. safe neighborhood

3. close to train

4. "1" train from work

GOT THIS!

My wish list for what I would like as standards if possible (please):

1. working functional kitchen

2. could guests stay over?

3. furnished

GOT THIS!

My Wish List for what I WOULD LOVE!!!!! (you know LOVE):

1. working OVEN

2. bathtub

GOT THIS!

and my inner design wish that I had forgotten about many moons back was a love for black and white checkered floors and

I GOT THIS TOO!!!

So waiting a week longer to have enough money...not a problem.  

My Dream HAS COME TRUE!!!!

I AM LIVING IN NYC, NY!!!!!

2 years ago....

and now....

           Katherine IS IN NYC!!!!!

Thank You God!!!

Is It?

Now as AMAZING as my past six months have been and the celebration was (and It WAS)...it is most definitely NOT a time for me to rest on my laurels (I don't even think I have any to rest upon) but truly...it IS time to launch forward!!!

Or Is It?

I have much to do.  

I would appreciate a new casa to live in that is preferably in NYC, but at least in the state of NY!  This presents quite a challenge as there is only so much fund-age I have been able to save/raise and then of course the actual finding of a place that is real and wants me.  

I am not "out on the street", I can stay longer where I am in Jersey City, but the travel into NYC is draining my wallet and energy rapidly.

Then there is work.

The conundrum of looking for even MORE work, which frankly seems ridiculous as I am holding down my position at Barbara Feinman Millinery along with growing my own business, Katherine Carey Millinery...which, in fact, is the reason I came to NYC in the first place!!!

Whew! Breathe!

Sigh... I know, it is what it is...but then today made me think...Is It?

I thought this because I have tried to be as diligent as possible (as seen in prior post) and I have been!  As well, I have been as frugal as possible whilst still allowing myself the simple pleasures when possible...hence the Lila Downs concert at Carnegie Hall (which I love as this AMAZING treat of a performance at this AMAZING historical venue cost $36!!!)  What a blessing!


Still, for being a Fashionista, my wardrobe is small and incredibly basic, as well as, insufficient for the upcoming Winter season.  My shoes are getting a work out from the NY walk and...well...I feel no guilt about what has been able to be put away in the savings jar.  I am impressed actually and yet...it is not enough.


And I realized the other day that, indeed, I was so grateful for acquiring more Patience as more Patience was being required in My Life...in EVERY area of My Life.  


Every single area.  

Home, Work, Love, Business, Finance, Commute, Foot ware, Winter wardrobe, Family health... and there was nothing I could do about any of these things.  They ALL required time and none of Me.


So I let go.  Not easy for a strong Taurean Monkey who not only is stubborn but has a tight grip on as many aspects of her life as possible.


But I did.  

I let go while waiting for train delays over the weekend while other commuters were flipping out all around me.  I let go while waiting for responses for apt.'s to answer me back.  I waited to add another day to my shop schedule.  I waited for checks to come in fully, waited for someone to purchase something from my website, waited to hear how my Aunt was doing as she waited in the hospital, and so on.


Interestingly, as I waited that day I focused on beauty.  I focused on the beauty everywhere around me.  Each tree and leaf in all their Autumn splendor, 

the way the leaves looked against the cement,

the structure of the buildings, the history everywhere. the people around me, the subway platform...I simply focused in.

Everything so beautiful.


That is my job.  Look for the beauty and let God do the rest. My intention is spot on, my ability and capability are present, I show up, I am ready, willing, and able...and I am NOT in control what-so-ever!!!

You know what I really want to do???

I want to ENJOY THIS SEASON!!!  

This Season I have waited for for numerous years to enjoy!!!  Holidays in NY...in two days there is the Macy's Day Thanksgiving Parade which I have wanted to see since I was a kid...AND I WILL!!!  There is a soiree at The Plaza the night before with a small group of very cool, very kind souls that befriended me when I got here...AND I WILL GO!!!  Then it's Holiday Time in NYC!!!  Christmas and New Year's and all I want to do is simply...


ENJOY EACH MOMENT!!!


That IS IT!!!

                             SO BE IT!

Reflection & Foresight.. . . Joyeux Anniversaire!!!

My first day on East Coast May 2011

Tomorrow is my 6th month Anniversary of moving towards NYC! In the past 6 months I have:

. Relocated!
. Found employment working for a Milliner as a Milliner in the heart of the East Village
. Learned the classic hat making skills I sought out to learn
. Designed a Fall/Winter/Spring collection blocking felts and straws
. Designed and created a fabulous website www.katherinecarey.com
. Have seen and met Michelle Shocked and The English Beat
. Am going to see Lila Downs in Carnegie Hall TONIGHT!
. Been on a weekend trip to upstate NY to visit my brother
. Been on a weekend trip to Connecticut to visit my best friend
. Been to the Statue of Liberty
. Survived the "schvitzing" of a NYC summer
. Survived Hurricane Irene ... literally 
. Survived at least 2 months with random hot water, generally no hot water ...pain in the __ __ __!!!
. Been through one snow storm IN OCT!!!
. Experienced the beauty of Autumn
. Became an author and wrote a chapter for a collaborative book Ready? Set? Jump Anyways!
 . Strolled endless times through Central Park
. Experienced my first (but not at all last) Fashion Week
. Participated in the Henri Bendel Open See
. Created a wholesale line
. Created a line sheet for my wholesale line
. Met some new wonderful souls
. Have found Myself stronger, healthier, slimmer than ever...must be the mass amounts of strolling I do!!!  That and being fulfilled!!!  INDEED!!! FULFILLED!!!
. Have watched the moon grown full every month
. Have seen Dreams come true

For You Katherine on Your Anniversary Of Following Your Heart... a Bouquet!!!

Here's to the Next Six...what WILL They bring???

What would YOU like?

Well... I am:
. Living in a cozy home for my stay in NY in NY.
. Working with other designers creating hats for runway shows.
. My Chapeaux are featured in magazine shoots.
. Stores PURCHASE My Hats.
. I am paid well for the work I do.
. I retreat somewhere beautiful and silent.
. I am in Paris for Haute Couture Fashion Week.
. My website IS a valuable and sustainable part of my income.
. I travel and spend time with those I love.
. I am successfully working for Myself. 
. I meet the right people, the best doors open, I walk through...but of course!
. I have the stamina, strength, determination, ability, and will for such.

Here's to Hopes and Dreams!!!!